Sometimes You Gotta Go Off Course.....

I work up this morning at 5am with a strong urge to sit down and write.  Those of you that know me know that I usually do not wake up at 5am I go to bed then.  So I figured it must be important.  For the past 9 months I have been traveling around the country as a NICU nurse....most of you know this.  I love what I do, but when I woke up this morning I couldn't help but think there is something more.  I think I know what that something is....Operation Smile.

These are some pictures of me 30 years ago.....

and this is a picture of a little girl named Brittany from Honduras..

Whats the difference between me and her?  I was born in America! 

Those of you that know me well know that my driving force has always been my heart.  I make most of my decisions based on how it makes me feel.  Some would call this foolish but it has taken me places I could have never dreamed of otherwise.  I want to say once again that I love what I do and that I am very happy doing it, but I used to have this fire that propelled me forward and frankly....I want it back. 

Most of you are probably thinking "what brought this on?"  Well I have been reading the book by Katie Couric  The Best Advice I Ever Got.  It got me thinking.   Am I doing my best?  Most people would look at my life and say she is pretty lucky....I am.  It's because I live a good life that makes me want it to mean something.   I have a job that I can take time off in between jobs to put my knowledge and skills to work and help put a smile on the face of a kid like me....why am I not doing that?   That is the question I woke up with this morning and I just thought I would share it.

Any thoughts?